Every now and then, and tonight is one of those times, I get a sense of unease. Its a little hard to describe how I'm feeling.

First, I feel like I need some quiet time, so I can hear and make sense of whats going on in my head.
But when I am quiet, I feel strongly that I need some answers.
If I go looking for answers though, I very quickly feel like I'm not going to find them.

Its frustrating. I feel like something is going on, just out of reach of my awareness.

Spending time with S today was pretty great. Its frustrating knowing that there is no chance there, but i just love being near him. I haven't felt this way since.. well, since D. I don't know if these feelings are authentic for S, or if its just because he reminds me of D so strongly.

Unconditional love. The Holy Grail at the heart of the human psyche. The pot of gold at the end of the relationship rainbow. The thing that we all want, yet seem unable ever to get. Yet it exists. It is within us. Our every breath is a by-product of the unconditional love that the Creator has for the creation. How do we get it? By giving it. How do we give it? By reaching for our highest, most divine wisdom. You can make a very big gesture now. This will bring a very powerful result. Just one condition. No conditions!

This was my star sign for today. My question is - who am I supposed to love unconditionally?